Fragments of Sanity
From boss fights to barn time; honest notes on mental health, sleep, and everyday recovery.
Learning to Stand Up Again, One Bad Week at a Time
How a broken desk, bad luck, and a tough week reminded me that healing isn’t linear Starting in the middle has its perks, but it also has its downfalls. For one, I have a lot of ideas, but finishing them is a whole other beast to slay. I often
The Flicker Before Sleep
A short story based on the prompt "Center your story around a character who can’t tell the difference between their dreams and reality" It always starts with a flicker right outside of my vision as I drift off to sleep. It could be a shadow moving, a
Panic Packing: A Terrible Life Hack
I see a lot of life hacks on here. Mostly, people say the same thing in different voices at different volumes. I absolutely love it. But let me start by making one thing very clear: I’ve never really been one to make my life easier on myself. I’m
A Brain That Works Differently
Reflections on childhood, chaos, and resilience I’ve been at war with my body since day one, and at war with my mind for as long as I can remember. Born with a hole in my heart the size of a Q-tip and another minor birth defect, a helicopter rushed
Inside the Loops: How OCD Quietly Took Over My Life
A firsthand look at how obsessive thoughts rewired my world one ritual at a time. For years, I thought my obsessive thoughts were harmless quirks. It wasn’t until they controlled my every action that I realized how serious OCD can be… and how little it’s truly understood. I’
Convincing Myself
The battle between understanding and intrusive thoughts
Dear OCD,
A mildly filtered breakup letter to my obsessive-compulsive disorder. Dear OCD, Go eff yourself. If I wrote a letter to my OCD, that’s how it would start... The actual letter wasn’t filtered…A writing prompt given to me by my therapist sparked what I needed to write today.
The Science of Horse Meal Prep: A Sleep-Deprived Confession
Ever wonder what it’s like to prepare meals for horses? No, probably not. Well, in my sleep-deprived state, I needed to occupy my time before I headed back to work. The following chaos is the result.
Hidden Compulsions, Real Recovery
Pure O: The OCD You Can’t See While trying to figure out where the spark would carry me next, I found myself ruminating on something that I read last night. It all started while reading the preview for a book my therapist recommended. A line stuck with me, about
Another Sleepless Night
Recurring nightmares haunt some nights, while peaceful and quick sleep plagues others, but the inability to stay asleep is the problem most nights. Some people assume that because I have narcolepsy, sleep isn’t an issue for me. “Oh, you can fall asleep whenever? I wish I could do that!
Lots of Cats on an Adventure
My New Insomnia Grounding Game Insomnia makes everything feel louder, the intrusive thoughts especially… Even the silence. Sometimes I remember my coping skills I learned in inpatient… Most of the time I don’t. But when things get really rough, sometimes my brain comes through, even in a sleep-deprived state.
Goodbye Silence
Saying Goodbye to the Vacation I Needed As I sit on the screened-in porch, curled under my blanket, listening to the sounds of the birds and the turtles splashing in the lake. I can’t help but be a little proud. I hesitate to use that word because it’s